STANGER

Almoz late nite- jan 12 09

STRANGER

Well, I had very long sleep laz nite. Really! . it’s bout 11 hours. W.O.W. it’s totally nice. So how was the daY?? Day was good.i juz had lazy time, spending the time by watching and chit chatting with sis. It’s totally a weekend, Perfect weekend, before that strange thing came……..

It’s started at the early evening, when eveything’s so serene in the wind of twilight. Eveything’s so OK, except I suddenly had my black-spot-excavating-hand-instrument disappeared, stolen maybe, but who did ? ( what!! It’s only a hm small stick and very affordable , even cheap one). I’d been looking for it and checking for hours , since the day.so the I got desperate and planed to buy the new one, before IT happened!.oya IT happened. Well, IT was really happening , the black-spot-excavating-hand-instrument which disappeared since the day is now laid down on the table-a place where I put it for the laz time before it’s gone for a moment- . I swore that I didn’t see it in the very laz check before IT happened. I was startled and kept winking if it, what-I’d-been-looking-for is now on the table. My sis got startled too! She , one, whom I always asked for help , was surprised too. So, she’s innocent. She, one, who found the stick and put it back down on the table. Soooo who did???? Whoooooooooo??

Then, the wild theories came over my head.
1. my sis suddenly had sum brain disorder particularly in memory calling ( saying she had early Dementia). She already found that stick , but she never remembered if she had put it on the table.
2. same as the 1st theory, but the subject is me. Yes it’s me who did. Who knows ??? ( oh God please gimme sum hints. Gimme sum prove that I didn’t do it. I juz dun wanna find myself suffering from early dementia. Please no .. God please)
3. the stick is a living thing .it could walk and escape. I know it sounds very impossible. But. Still, who knows???????
4. harry potter came to my house in order to flee from his magical world. He, under his invisibility cloak, knew what I was looking for and tried to help. He then summoned the stick , * accio stick* it was there, it’s found, then he put it back on the table. W.O.W it’s very impossible. But who knows???
5. the Cullen boys visited me , saying Jasper( or more cullen boys ) wanna meet me, he’s( they’re) crazy in love with me. So when he(they) knew that I was so sad for losing my black-spot-excavating-hand-instrument*exaggerating* , he(they) then tried so hard to find it. Yes he(they) found it. Then put it back on the table with a super fast move ( as fast as light speed). So I didn’t get he’s( they’re) there for me. Such a sweetheart(s)! * evil laugh* . I wished!! * greedy look*
6. the laz theory , well, it’s a hmm ghost, spirit , or invisible stranger who really care of me or juz tried to help. My sis even told me that it’s maybe my savior angle. W.O.W . it didn’t sound conforting. It’s still creepy for me.

Other options? Please add some, the acceptable one.. and comforting one , pleaseee.

welcome back

so it's a welcome back rite?? hehe since it was kinda long time to not posting in this blog. I feel so much confused then of what i'm gonna tell bout. it's juz TMTT ( Too Much To Tell or Too Moron To Tell). Really!! I cant even recall what i've already done in sum special moment like new year's eve or birthday. it's juz too ordinary..

well, since the aunty came here then stayed for almoz 2 weeks, i could only be a guide. It's exhausting yet fun. How could you do sight seeing and shopping in almoz 10 hours in a piece and it's always done eveyday in that 2 weeks. *surprise look*
whata bionic woman!! hahaha
well, the bad news came at the laz day of her stay.Her bubby/my uncle got moderate stroke. WOW it's juz there mebe, it juz happened so fast. i meant, he's supposed to be very OK at that day, since he juz called my aunty at the nite before getting the attack. he was juz soo fine in fone. so the, my aunty , she went back to Pontianak with such a deep weep.

so what bout the new year celebration??
i actually didnt celebrate it coz it's no longer super special for me . The other reason maybe coz of the situation in the city. frens told me that she's trapped in such a massive crowd in downtown. it's even more in sum hippiest or hotest spoy out there.
What's to regret?? missing a new year's eve in downtown wid frustating crowd? NAAH!! haha. well, anyway, it's not the only reason why i didnt celebrate it.i dunno exactly why. it's juz like another nite to me. so then what to do is juz to make a deep reflection by setting sum new resolutions to bring the betterment in a year ahead.

here come...

the resolutions

1. as im in the half of 3rd year which's been a start to more clinical exercises, i the put " more serious to academic" as my first resolution. it's always be the 1st through the age. haha. indeed. i couldnt feel that i fully complied the resolution laz year coz i broke alot all the way in undergoing this serious attachment. i was juz too careless to be true. so then, i put this resolution (again) as the 1st resolution in 2009. good! serious one!

2. actually, it's kinda confusing for making the 2nd resolution. it's bout the urgency and necessity. while i kept arranging the 2nd one, i kept asking the question to myself.
what to do to make me better this year?
what i didnt produce / make?
what i've ognored?
what i've neglected?
what i was careless bout?
what i need to do in this year?
too much questions against the requests in my head. so then the brilliant idea popped , eventually. I juz need to have managable-1-yea-special-agenda since i had poorly treated agenda in 2008.i didnt even think bout the possibility of the accomplishment inside. so then , mayve with this "real agenda"

Hello, I had poorly treated agenda in 2008. I didn’t even think bout the possibility of the accomplishment inside. So then, maybe with this “ real agenda”. I could manage my life better. It should be completed by the health risk possibility and material probability, strength, threat. Wow. Such a high !!!

3. since. I was kinda slow to respond anything happening around, I then juz need to pay more attention to “ environment”. Environment means any places, any situation where I do stand. Simply, I juz wanna be more caring person

4. I’m now 20 years old. Im no longer teenager then whose unpredictable lust and mood with ( sumtimes) unclear and undefined direction. Therefore in this freash 20, I juz need to control the emotion, behaviour and attitude.

5. it’s serious matter. Really!! It’s bout the money management. I’m very bad at managing the money, so when it turns to be a serious urge, I might be so frustating. I could hardly save the money for greater objective, more important purpose. So then it’s becoming serious problem to me who’s gonna exercise the clinical year whose largest amount of expenses. Another up-coming stuff is my exchange programe.i promise to myself that I wouldn’t ask my parent to pay my exchange programe expenses. Well, actually, it’s not only academic programe, but also the traveling time for me privately. Maybe it ‘s gonna be the second independent traveling after what I did in 07. it’s really awesome to travel with own money!!. So what to do then?? I juz simply need to save sum money , sum hundreds thousand / month is worth enuff or make a side job??? We’ll see( it’s the moz extreme one hahaha)

6. all I need to for the health is juz to attach to sum diet programe. It’s crucial. Im now having my BMI turned into overweight that I sometimes feel such a heavy breath at nite. For other reason why it’s so urgent to do is , In this curvier body, I have less productivity. So what’s not to do???

7. well, how bout to think bout having boyfriend?? Or do approach to sum guys ? I mean for special relationship? Seriously?? Hahahaha well, we’ll see. Only heaven knows.

other unwritten resolutions will come later. Rite after examining days ahead.