Holiday!!... coming soon!! coming soon!! coming soon!!

well. it's been over 3 weeks without publishing sum post in here. it's like to lose sum lil part thing on me actually. it's getting more when i already had some more terribleness these days. it started from the unreadiness for exams that i feel it's totally blur to make sure if im lucky or even stunk at the moment. it's one of things inside me that i hate most. being lazy in the beginning , thinking that i could handle everything, assuring it's not as super difficult that i just left it like im very much sure that i can make it up. therefore , when exams going, when it's MUCH MORE difficult as i thot before, when i kept blinking in the first 30 Q's , when I felt everything's blur in the next 20 Q's, when my eyes seemed pulled our in the next 10 Q's, when i got dizzy in the next 10 Q's, when i felt my brain blowing out!!, i juz wanna trash those papers right away.. REALLY!!!!

another terribleness was adjusting my hosting stuffs for summer school. I dunno why it's so much unpredicted in the end since in the very fist time i could easily make everything in the right place. it's like to take my breath away to face the conflict between me and one whom i host. i know it's all bout the miscommunication, but it was like an ultra huge trouble. the problem was juz i dunno what to do then got terribly confused in the middle of the home stay since we had a bad way to comunicate all stuffs. i didnt know what she wanted and she needed as when i asked her what i should do for her , she always said " dunno, nothing". *sigh* from this point, i cant tell and describe how it's going.well, it's not a justification, we know we're both absolutely wry in this case. it's OK . very much OK. i know what to do next... yes , i will not care everything then.

OK then.. It's almost the end of JULY. it means im gonna have HOLIDAY in the first week of August. it's like a
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYY.. WOOOHHHHHOOOOOOOOOO.. HUAAAAAAAHUAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!
* running in the absolute joy*
It's a super big thing for me.. come on it's HOLIDAY.... A-MONTH-HOLIDAY, the longest Holiday ever for me so far. I do think alot of this Holiday that i already plan to make what-to-do-list during this holiday! Crazyy!! psychologically in the groove of vacation. if i can show the bubled-though over head, it muz be showing you the beaches, my china town, my favorite foods which i can hardly find it in yogya, my ROOM ohhh, my house, big family, nephew, niece, cousins, everyone i missed so much these days, and anything but i missed.
then... Mom called me, said " sweety, we're gonna go to mecca in the 1st day of fasting month to do UMRAH " *blinkin for bit while* WHATTT UMRAH?? it's really unplanned. is it really UMRAH i heard from the phone? wowowowoww.. Umrah. going to mecca for Umrah is not like travelling for fun but it does even need a high concern and seriousness within this intention that we need a really super DETERMINATION for this, really... When mom keeps convincing it's good for us to go together this holiday, i dunno why i keep thinking and my mind changes every minute, still YES no YES no. it really needs DETERMINATION people!! , and i didnt even guess and expect it would come so fast like this. so what to do next?? well , i just need to determine that i gotta be always ready for Umrah. Mom told that i and sis should prepare everything to this very valuable trip. YES MOM.
i dunno why i and sis dont feel we're ready for this. well maybe it's coz of the unnecessary paranoid existing inside our head. it's all bout Before and After. it's not bout the moz valuable proccess but a Before and an After. when mom's smiling on this YES , my sis freaks out! totally confused and paranoid. oh my gosh... Im ready Mom.. *trying to*

under the roof of the net cafe, im writing and sharing lotta things in my post rite now, i slowly feel so sleepy. so i need to go off to bed in minutes ahead.
c l8ter soon.
peace out!! (n_n)v